Re-reading your old LJ entries is so...weird.


I didn't really realise how much we all went out until I read them all and HOLY SHIT how did I get through it? We had great times though, didn't we?

So many different memories within those pages - From moving out, to moving back in again. From feeling amazing to feeling sick as a dog. Meeting some incredible and some not so incredible people, some of which will stick with me for life. From meeting friends to meeting soulmates. From varying jobs, to varying courses. Things I have achieved, things I have yet to learn...

The list goes on. Somehow, reflecting on the past can really put your thoughts into place. I really was ready to give up on Uni, yet for some reason reading my entries made me realise that isn't the best thing to do. Do I really want to give up a career path I like just because I might actually have to learn things myself rather than rely on others to teach it? I don't want to be finishing education at 25. I like web design, it's just a badly operated course, but I can't let that be enough to stop me.

Another realisation that occurred to me was that I have been dwelling incessantly on the future, that culmination, that peak of life where you have the job, the other half, the house and the cars. I've been daydreaming about how great things can be, and in doing so, failing to notice how good things are. I almost feel as though I'm just not fun any more, far too fixed upon the destination to really take in the journey. That's going to change.

My creative streak seems to have shrivelled up and died recently, however I am starting to draw again, it's good for the soooooooooooul.

The times are changing - a bunch of great friends of mine have graduated recently, and are all now free to pursue their goals. I find it exciting, it seems so grown up and monumental - kind of like the last day of high school, you know you are leaving and moving on, but you don't see it as a huge deal until you look back 5 years later and realise that it was quite a hurdle, that you will never have the opportunity to go through again. To those who have graduated - don't see it as the end of 4 years of studying, see it as the beginning of the next stage of your life. I wish you all the very best. Don't think you've heard the last of me!

I think this is why I like Naruto so much. I believe in so much mushy shit it's unbelieveable.

My next door neighbour got a kitten. Can you imagine? A kitten. A baby cat. A tiny tiny tiny little ginger and white male, with little paws/ears/nose/whiskers/tail/belly/everything. Next door. To me. The house next to mine. FUCKING RAD! I wonder if Gizmo will like him?

Anyway sorry for my weird mood *spaz*

I hope everyone is well, and congrats again to all those who graduated!